Friday, April 26, 2013

Korbyns cause on face book

Some friends have started a wonderful fb page for korbyn its called korbyns cause. It is a beautiful page. This is the scar on his chest from port placement surgery

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Our Littlle Ninja Warrior has a big day tomorrow at Clinic.
 He is such a fighter he is such a strong little boy I am so proud of him he gives me strength everyday.
Korbyn and I hair Buddies.
  Giving Korbyn A haircut


After Haircut


Korbyn showing his Humor Smiling for the camera.

Sunday, April 21, 2013

Not al super heroes wear capes, some wear thomas the train pajamas, andned their mommys to cuddle and hug when the pain gets to be much. Cancer sucks. But I won't give up on us. Even when the skies get rough. God knows were worth it.

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Primary children's is always a tough hospital to visit, but for some reason being here time and time again, getting some of the best treatment needed for my child. I still walk the halls here on the verge of tears every time. But standard Protocol as it has become here, my boy requests cheeseburgers. Its humbling that the nurses have come to expect this, and tear jerking as well. They get to know your child so well. Its saddening for the sheer fact this is our second home, but strangely comforting that they take the time to get to know your child. And create a certain comfort with them. Not wanting to be in this place, ironically feeling blessed that we are.

Sunday, April 14, 2013


Having a fun time with Mom.
My Little Man getting ready for his treatment two weeks ago. He is such a fighter. He is playing Cars he loves Lightning McQueen and especially Mater. He is doing such a great job I am so proud of him

Saturday, April 13, 2013

As I sit here tonight watching my little boy sleep, harsh realities of life circle in. His hair is coming out in clumps now, when do I breakdown and shave it entirely? He was born with a full head of hair, and has always had gorgeous thick wavy hair. I try to explain to him that Samson got strength from hair, and his good guys need his hair to give them strength, but what 3 year old has read the bible? That appears to be the story giving this mommy strength instead. I don't fully understand why my preciou little boy is being asked to endure this trial, but I take strength in his bravery. The road is long, and the journey is hard, but the strength of a wee little 3 year old, will teach me that when the deck is stacked against us, just play a different game. Korbyn is my strength right now. He can do anything he is being asked to do, and I just need to love and trust in the willpower of a toddler. I won't give up on us, even when the skies get rough, I'm giving you all my love, I won't give up, won't give up on us.

Thursday, April 11, 2013

Children are great. This littlsne guy says I don't stinking snack food while getting my chemo snacks are for wooses give me a cheeseburger. I'm thinking about entering him in an eating competition against that Asian dude that eats like 20 hotdogs. How would that guy feel to lose to toddler on steroids. Team korbyn for the ninja fights and the eating competition. This is the first time I have been accused of being the picky non eater, Cu's this boy will eat anything just add ketchup and cheese.

Friday, April 5, 2013

I have had people asking me about my little boy. Korbyn was born c section at 39 weeks 5 days. Normal 8 pound full head of hair, little man. Hhe took his,o first steps the day after his first birthday. He is a normally healthy active boy. About 3 weeks ago he fell down the stairs, and started limping. Frustrated after many xrays we got a referral last monday to an orthopedic specialists. He decided th do some blood work, to check for an infection called synovitis. Tuesday he called and he said, there were traces of viral infection in his blood, but that wouldn't justify the off the chart wbc counts. After more tests. He called and said the oncology and hematology department at primary childers has korbyns labs. Pack a bag.they need you tonight. He has leukemia. Blasts are at 85 %. He is literally in a fight for his life. As jason mraz says I won't give up on us, even when the skies get rough. I'm giving you all my love.
http://jasonmraz.com/video/official/2012/i-wont-give-up-official-lyric-video/

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Monday, April 1, 2013

as i sit here this morning, thanking God that we are home right now, i cry as i watch little man slep. he is so young and is being asked to be oh so brave, as these bad ninjas reek havoc in his body.we fight everytime its medicine time, he does't understand he needs these medicine to help hid body be ready to stand strong against the ninjas. i tell him, buddy you may hate mommy right now, but one day you'll love me for this. i say it, and i pray constantly we will get to that day.